Ok, so maybe you all think I got burned tonight. Not that it would surprise me, but no I did not actually ge burned in the typical sense of the word. I do however has a burning sensation on my lips. It is all Adam's fault! hahahaha Ok, not really his fault, it's mine. I can blame him though, right? lol
I bought the kids some fresh picked hot peppers the other day. I thought they could make hot sauce with them. Adam loves (LOVES) spicy foods. He gets very proud of himself when he mixes spies to BBQ sauce to make a hot and spicy BBQ sauce. So, being a nice mom, and being bored tonight, after everyone went to bed, I roasted the peppers to give a nice flavor and remove the skins. This way the kids (mostly Adam) can make the hot sauce in the morning with out help from me. :o)
I was careful not to wipe my eyes or lick my fingers and stuff like that. I know these peppers are spicy hot. I do not like spicy hot anything so I was very careful. Apparently I wasn't careful enough though. lol You see, hot peppers that are having the skins removed let off some juice in the air. OH MY! My face is right above the plate I am using to put the peppers on. My eyes get the heat and I blink quite a bit. It gets better, no problems. My lips though!!! HOLY COMOLY!!! It is as if all the juice that the pepper let off seemed into the skin around my lips. Fifteen minutes later I am sitting here and my lips are still burning!!!
I try to do something nice and I get burned. Ever feel that way? I sure do at times. I try to help someone and they get mad at me. Or I get someone a gift and they hate it. Or, well, you get the idea.
It's at times like that I wonder if I did what God asked me to do, or, did I read more into it then God actually said. I fel like I got burned when things don't go as I expect them because someone changed their ideas of the situation. It is like the hot spicy burning sensation burning my lips. It hurts at first, then the pain lingers, trying to make it go away irritates it more, then I get upset at what ever caused the burning sensation in the first place.
Getting mad at the peppers is pretty senseless and ridiculous, right? Well, so is getting mad at someone else, or even at God Himself, when you get burned. If I had waited for the peppers to cool I might have had thta burning sensation as bad as I did. If I wait for God to show me what to do I won't feel as though I am being burned by God, circumstances and other people.
Wait on the lord to avoid getting burned. He will always direcxt our paths straight if we jsut humble ourselves and ask Him.
God's goal for you in life.
Life goes on, move with it
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
a headache kind of day.........
Today has been a day full of lots of things, including a migraine!!! Oh how I dislike migraines. I have not had this bad of one in about a year or so and I was blessed with only minor headaches regularly rather then major ones. God sure has been good to me for the last year. For this alone do I feel honored and blessed beyond measure!
That got me thinking........ God is so good to me. I was severely beaten as a young child, but God protected me and I am still alive today. He had me raised in a foster home that loved the Lord and went to a born again church. My foster parents were wonderful and they raised me as if I was one of their own. Over the years I was never in need of anything and barely in want of anything for it was all, and them some, provided for me. I felt welcomed and loved......
As an adult, even tough I do not have foster kids of my own, I still try to give back. I am not giving back because I want to justify why I was treated so well, not because I think I can earn anything by doing so, not to look good in front of people. I give back to show my god I love Him and am thankful for protecting me all those years, and still doing so now.
So, now as an adult I try to live my life for Jesus each and everyday. I admit I am not perfect, actually I am far from it!!! Neither and I sinless but rather I just sin less. So today, I thank Jesus Christ the Son, God the Father and the Holy Spirit in helping me sin less and less each day. I will never be sinless but I can try to always sin less. :o)
As another note of interest I have been receiving a lot of rebuke from one person on facebook. I shared, very briefly and nicely, an invite to my church. I could have just put it on my facebook profile wall page but I felt led to ask people thru a private message instead. Well, as I expected just not to this extent, someone thought I was being "pushy" in my religion. pushy? Me? Obviously he has no idea what I am like. lol!!! Too funny!!!!!! I mean, if you know me well, I am honest and open about my faith and my relationship with Christ, however you would also know I am not pushy.
so my point is if you feel lled to share, by all means LISTEN TO IT!!!
SHARE YOUR FAITH!!
Jesus requires it. After all Scriptures talk about not hiding your light, to go forth and spread the good news, to be bold. They will know you by your fruit. If we are timid and do not share then we will produce no fruit. I'm sorry but I do not want to be hewn down!!! I do not want to be cast into the fire!!!!!!!
So, despite the slack I received, and will expect to continue to receive, I will be vocal about my beliefs. If you do not like it, please ignore me. delete me or do not read this blog.
That got me thinking........ God is so good to me. I was severely beaten as a young child, but God protected me and I am still alive today. He had me raised in a foster home that loved the Lord and went to a born again church. My foster parents were wonderful and they raised me as if I was one of their own. Over the years I was never in need of anything and barely in want of anything for it was all, and them some, provided for me. I felt welcomed and loved......
As an adult, even tough I do not have foster kids of my own, I still try to give back. I am not giving back because I want to justify why I was treated so well, not because I think I can earn anything by doing so, not to look good in front of people. I give back to show my god I love Him and am thankful for protecting me all those years, and still doing so now.
For I the Lord your God hold your right hand; I am the Lord, Who says to you, Fear not; I will help you! (Isaiah 41:13)
Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost; Which he shed on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Saviour; That being justified by his grace, we should be made heirs according to the hope of eternal life.
(Titus 3: 5-7)So, now as an adult I try to live my life for Jesus each and everyday. I admit I am not perfect, actually I am far from it!!! Neither and I sinless but rather I just sin less. So today, I thank Jesus Christ the Son, God the Father and the Holy Spirit in helping me sin less and less each day. I will never be sinless but I can try to always sin less. :o)
As another note of interest I have been receiving a lot of rebuke from one person on facebook. I shared, very briefly and nicely, an invite to my church. I could have just put it on my facebook profile wall page but I felt led to ask people thru a private message instead. Well, as I expected just not to this extent, someone thought I was being "pushy" in my religion. pushy? Me? Obviously he has no idea what I am like. lol!!! Too funny!!!!!! I mean, if you know me well, I am honest and open about my faith and my relationship with Christ, however you would also know I am not pushy.
so my point is if you feel lled to share, by all means LISTEN TO IT!!!
SHARE YOUR FAITH!!
Jesus requires it. After all Scriptures talk about not hiding your light, to go forth and spread the good news, to be bold. They will know you by your fruit. If we are timid and do not share then we will produce no fruit. I'm sorry but I do not want to be hewn down!!! I do not want to be cast into the fire!!!!!!!
So, despite the slack I received, and will expect to continue to receive, I will be vocal about my beliefs. If you do not like it, please ignore me. delete me or do not read this blog.
Matthew 7:15-20 (King James Version)
Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
If you do share my thoughts please comment below how you share your faith each day. Are you a quiet secret person who helps in the background or are you front and center helping out where ever needed? Do your friends know you are saved? If not... why? Do strangers you meet get the feeling that you are different because of your beliefs or do you resemble everyone else in your actions?
They (the world) will know believers (us) by our fruits. Are you known by yours?
I pray daily that the people I meet will always see Jesus before they see me. :)
Friday, August 27, 2010
lesson learned
Today has been a rough day for me with my walk with God. Not that I have not felt close to Him or anything. I have not been disobedient, to my knowledge. I have actually prayed quite a bit today, feeling thankful for all He has done for me. So why has it been rough? Well, not only was I taught one lesson today, I was taught 2!
First might I explain what happened today... Well, I have been in a slump, feeling frustrated and sad because I feel compelled, almost "required" to break contact with someone I once was very, very close with. Due to once being close to this person breaking off the relationship, in my mind, is inconceivable... It is not something I want to do. This someone has always claimed to be saved, to Love the Lord God with all their heart. This person and I have been through a lot (I mean A LOT!!) together. Not talking to this person, albeit very seldom as of late, brings sadness to my heart. If I feel so close to this person why do I feel compelled to break contact? Well, it is easy. They have offended my God, the one True God. Their behavior is not only atrocious and wrong (according the the Word that they say they follow) but they have lived their life this way for some time, a lot longer then I care to admit. To sit idly by and watch this person disgrace the God that I love so much hurts me deeply. I have tried to talk to this person. I have tried to reason with this person. I have prayed and prayed and prayed.......... but my compelling feelings have not changed, nor has their behavior.
Then a couple of days ago, this person was very rude to me because their views differed from mine, which were based on Scriptures. When I asked this person not to be rude, I was then told off... This was not the first time this type of situation has come up. So, you see I have a choice........ do I sit back quietly while they continue to act opposite the Scriptures while telling everyone they are Saved, and stay friends with them therefore seeming to condone their behavior? OR Do I cut my losses, end the friendship, live for Christ and leave it all up to God?
Gee, let me think.................. It's a no-brainer right? Yes, but, (you knew there would be a but, right?) since I was really, really close to this person it is hard to let things end. I know I haven't had much of a relationship with them lately but to say we are done for good is such finality......... It has been troubling me so much lately. I feel betrayed by this person, hurt deeply. They know the truth yet they will not live by the truth, but they say they are Christians...... To me, that is slapping God in the face by saying you worship him but live opposite to His Word. I can not, nor will I, sit idly by and watch them slap my God in the face. I can't just do that... It's wrong!
So, where did I learn my lesson? At dinner tonight of all places!!! We always read a devotional to the kids while we eat dinner as a family. Tonight we chose to read My Utmost for His Highest. We do not always read that day's reading; we sometimes open it up and read what it opens to, other times we "search" (skim) for something that may pertain to what we are going through. I did the last option today. Since I had been struggling with this situation I thought Jan 11th sounded promising. It is titled "What my obedience to God costs other people". It talks about how if we live our lives according to Scriptures and keep obeying God people around us will ridicul, be upset, or angry at us because sometimes our obedience to God causes them an inconvience......
Like going to the movies. If a friend asks me to go to the movies with her and some friends, and I say yes. then I find out it's a horror movie they are going to see. I then change my mind because I don't agree that watching a horror movie is edifying. They might get mad at me and call me little miss goodie two shoes...
So you see, in that circumstance my living for God inconvenienced and upset my friends... So getting back to my situation I learned that no matter what this person feels about me, whether they get mad at me or think I am stuck up or whatever it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things........ My God is happy with my obedience and that makes me happy. :)
Ok, so one lesson learned now about the second lesson......... That was caused my the disobedience of my son. My oldest son has never really "got things" and understood why in fact something was wrong that he did. As he has gotten older this has happened less often but it happened tonight. Mike and I found out that Adam defaced property belonging to our apartment complex. He did it when his friends were around a while ago, apparently. We just found out about it tonight. Of course we were furious!!! Mike was extremely upset because eviction can be the end result of defacement of complex property... We have lived here 14 years already, with never a problem. We do not want any problems, especially caused by our children. Most kids would have remorse and understand the depth of their sin. Adam, not so much. He was confused. Although he knew it was wrong, he understood he did it willfully, he was lost on the idea that his friends were around when he did it and no one told him he was wrong for doing it. (I know I know! Most people would totally get that without an explanation, but not Adam, not with his Asperger's.) So it took some time to get it through to him it doesn't matter what others thought, or said. He knew the right way to behave. They are not his conscience. God is... then it dawned on me.......
Here is the second lesson. How many times have we acted that same way towards God? How many times have we told God (directly or indirectly) that "everyone's doing it" ~~ I don't understnad why we can't do it? What is so wrong with it? It's not all that bad. ~~ You see where I am going with this.
It doesn't matter who is doing what, or when or how. We have the Scriptures to guide us, we need to take responsibility for our own actions. We need to stop leaning on our friends to help us stay out of trouble. We need to stand up in our faith and live for Christ, even when we don't understand or when everyone else is disobeying... It is up to us to behave and act responsible. God expects us to. I expect me to...
So that is my lessons learned today. You know I feel much better now that I have shared all that. :)
:o)
First might I explain what happened today... Well, I have been in a slump, feeling frustrated and sad because I feel compelled, almost "required" to break contact with someone I once was very, very close with. Due to once being close to this person breaking off the relationship, in my mind, is inconceivable... It is not something I want to do. This someone has always claimed to be saved, to Love the Lord God with all their heart. This person and I have been through a lot (I mean A LOT!!) together. Not talking to this person, albeit very seldom as of late, brings sadness to my heart. If I feel so close to this person why do I feel compelled to break contact? Well, it is easy. They have offended my God, the one True God. Their behavior is not only atrocious and wrong (according the the Word that they say they follow) but they have lived their life this way for some time, a lot longer then I care to admit. To sit idly by and watch this person disgrace the God that I love so much hurts me deeply. I have tried to talk to this person. I have tried to reason with this person. I have prayed and prayed and prayed.......... but my compelling feelings have not changed, nor has their behavior.
Then a couple of days ago, this person was very rude to me because their views differed from mine, which were based on Scriptures. When I asked this person not to be rude, I was then told off... This was not the first time this type of situation has come up. So, you see I have a choice........ do I sit back quietly while they continue to act opposite the Scriptures while telling everyone they are Saved, and stay friends with them therefore seeming to condone their behavior? OR Do I cut my losses, end the friendship, live for Christ and leave it all up to God?
Gee, let me think.................. It's a no-brainer right? Yes, but, (you knew there would be a but, right?) since I was really, really close to this person it is hard to let things end. I know I haven't had much of a relationship with them lately but to say we are done for good is such finality......... It has been troubling me so much lately. I feel betrayed by this person, hurt deeply. They know the truth yet they will not live by the truth, but they say they are Christians...... To me, that is slapping God in the face by saying you worship him but live opposite to His Word. I can not, nor will I, sit idly by and watch them slap my God in the face. I can't just do that... It's wrong!
So, where did I learn my lesson? At dinner tonight of all places!!! We always read a devotional to the kids while we eat dinner as a family. Tonight we chose to read My Utmost for His Highest. We do not always read that day's reading; we sometimes open it up and read what it opens to, other times we "search" (skim) for something that may pertain to what we are going through. I did the last option today. Since I had been struggling with this situation I thought Jan 11th sounded promising. It is titled "What my obedience to God costs other people". It talks about how if we live our lives according to Scriptures and keep obeying God people around us will ridicul, be upset, or angry at us because sometimes our obedience to God causes them an inconvience......
Like going to the movies. If a friend asks me to go to the movies with her and some friends, and I say yes. then I find out it's a horror movie they are going to see. I then change my mind because I don't agree that watching a horror movie is edifying. They might get mad at me and call me little miss goodie two shoes...
So you see, in that circumstance my living for God inconvenienced and upset my friends... So getting back to my situation I learned that no matter what this person feels about me, whether they get mad at me or think I am stuck up or whatever it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things........ My God is happy with my obedience and that makes me happy. :)
Ok, so one lesson learned now about the second lesson......... That was caused my the disobedience of my son. My oldest son has never really "got things" and understood why in fact something was wrong that he did. As he has gotten older this has happened less often but it happened tonight. Mike and I found out that Adam defaced property belonging to our apartment complex. He did it when his friends were around a while ago, apparently. We just found out about it tonight. Of course we were furious!!! Mike was extremely upset because eviction can be the end result of defacement of complex property... We have lived here 14 years already, with never a problem. We do not want any problems, especially caused by our children. Most kids would have remorse and understand the depth of their sin. Adam, not so much. He was confused. Although he knew it was wrong, he understood he did it willfully, he was lost on the idea that his friends were around when he did it and no one told him he was wrong for doing it. (I know I know! Most people would totally get that without an explanation, but not Adam, not with his Asperger's.) So it took some time to get it through to him it doesn't matter what others thought, or said. He knew the right way to behave. They are not his conscience. God is... then it dawned on me.......
Here is the second lesson. How many times have we acted that same way towards God? How many times have we told God (directly or indirectly) that "everyone's doing it" ~~ I don't understnad why we can't do it? What is so wrong with it? It's not all that bad. ~~ You see where I am going with this.
It doesn't matter who is doing what, or when or how. We have the Scriptures to guide us, we need to take responsibility for our own actions. We need to stop leaning on our friends to help us stay out of trouble. We need to stand up in our faith and live for Christ, even when we don't understand or when everyone else is disobeying... It is up to us to behave and act responsible. God expects us to. I expect me to...
So that is my lessons learned today. You know I feel much better now that I have shared all that. :)
:o)
animated dirt balls
I do the things I ought not to do and do not do the things I ought to do...
This is the story of my life. My pastor, Matt Gerwitz has a saying that I really love becuase it really puts things into focus for me. He calls humans, mankind, animated dirtballs. well, It sure is true...
Tonight for instance, after a busy but wonderful two days I had had enough emotional stress..... Dnaiel, being my lovely, wonderfully caring son, was asking me to take care of something that someone did to him today. I had already taken care of that problem earlier in the day... I didn't understnad why I was being asked again about it.... so, I got upset.... I became a dirt ball.
A living, talking, walking animated dirt ball...
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for loving me despite my faults. Thank you for being willing to be born to this filthy Earth sot ath you might willingly be put to death for crimes you were not guilty of just so I could be with you in Heaven for eternity... I love you because you first loved me.
your beloved, Trisha
Remember that next time you do something you know better then to be doing it, we are all animated dirtballs but are washed clean and accepted in to the fold of the Lord by His flowing blood and resurrection.
This is the story of my life. My pastor, Matt Gerwitz has a saying that I really love becuase it really puts things into focus for me. He calls humans, mankind, animated dirtballs. well, It sure is true...
Tonight for instance, after a busy but wonderful two days I had had enough emotional stress..... Dnaiel, being my lovely, wonderfully caring son, was asking me to take care of something that someone did to him today. I had already taken care of that problem earlier in the day... I didn't understnad why I was being asked again about it.... so, I got upset.... I became a dirt ball.
A living, talking, walking animated dirt ball...
Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for loving me despite my faults. Thank you for being willing to be born to this filthy Earth sot ath you might willingly be put to death for crimes you were not guilty of just so I could be with you in Heaven for eternity... I love you because you first loved me.
your beloved, Trisha
Remember that next time you do something you know better then to be doing it, we are all animated dirtballs but are washed clean and accepted in to the fold of the Lord by His flowing blood and resurrection.
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
sorry it has been so long
As I sit here I think "ok what am I going to write about?" Even though I have been busy getting ready for the new school year and Mike has been on vacation a few times this summer it seems as though there isn't a lot to write home about. this summer we have done many family things around the Rochester area. I love spending time with my family.
At church we have had a number of extremely good teachings, not that Matt's teachings are always good mind you. Lately he has focused on challenging the congregation to improve their walk with Christ and here on Earth. Recently his biggest challenge was to get someone you know to hold you accountable for something you need to improve in your life, a sin issue. so, I took the challenge, in fact Mike and I both did. My accountability person is Ellen. (THANK YOU ELLEN!!!) So how does one hold someone else accountable when they do not see them daily? It is based on trust.... trust is funny thing.
Trust is a two way street, like most things in any relationship. Does Ellen trust me to tell her the truth about my sin issue and how I have progressed with making it better? Do I trust Ellen to hold me accountable for behaving in an inappropriate way against God? I sure hope so. I know I trust her, otherwise I wouldn't have asked her. I pray she trusts me to be honest. I am, you know, really...despite how it hurts how I look.
So how do I look? Not to people, silly lol, but to God? When we sin it is gross, disgusting, dirtier then anything we have ever seen or imagined in God's eyes. Can you imagine bringing something into your house that is so gross it makes you physically sick? that is makes your family want to run out of the house throwing up? that is how it is between us and God. OH WOW! When you put it like that it is really cruel that we sin against God. so why do we do it?
Honestly, because it feels so good... Our human nature desires to do what feels good to us. when we sin it makes us feel like we can do anything. Oh it's just a white lie, nothing big. Or it's just a pen I took from the bank when I wrote my check, no biggie... Even, taking a longer break then you are supposed to (by even 5 minutes) is stealing. So you do not have to be a murdered, commit armed robbery or be a pathological liar to not be looked upon favorable in God's eyes. We all do. All the time.More then we ever know.
So, can we ever be found favorable to God?
YES!!!!! YES AND YES!!!! That is the awesome thing about God. He is not one to hold grudges. He forgives you each and every time as long as confess your sin and repent. God loves us all the time, no matter how disgraceful we behave. He wants to have that close relationship with us and wants us to desire to have one with Him. If we are always bringing dirty gross sin into the relationship He has to turn his nose at it. How can He not? But if we clean the house, (repent our sins) and invite Him to join us in a clean place washed by His blood He rejoices to spend time wiht us. Do you rejoice at that too? I certainly do!
well, this was much longer then I anticipated, but I think it turned out well.
Remember that in order to be close to Christ, you need His blood to clean you.
God Bless, Trisha
At church we have had a number of extremely good teachings, not that Matt's teachings are always good mind you. Lately he has focused on challenging the congregation to improve their walk with Christ and here on Earth. Recently his biggest challenge was to get someone you know to hold you accountable for something you need to improve in your life, a sin issue. so, I took the challenge, in fact Mike and I both did. My accountability person is Ellen. (THANK YOU ELLEN!!!) So how does one hold someone else accountable when they do not see them daily? It is based on trust.... trust is funny thing.
Trust is a two way street, like most things in any relationship. Does Ellen trust me to tell her the truth about my sin issue and how I have progressed with making it better? Do I trust Ellen to hold me accountable for behaving in an inappropriate way against God? I sure hope so. I know I trust her, otherwise I wouldn't have asked her. I pray she trusts me to be honest. I am, you know, really...despite how it hurts how I look.
So how do I look? Not to people, silly lol, but to God? When we sin it is gross, disgusting, dirtier then anything we have ever seen or imagined in God's eyes. Can you imagine bringing something into your house that is so gross it makes you physically sick? that is makes your family want to run out of the house throwing up? that is how it is between us and God. OH WOW! When you put it like that it is really cruel that we sin against God. so why do we do it?
Honestly, because it feels so good... Our human nature desires to do what feels good to us. when we sin it makes us feel like we can do anything. Oh it's just a white lie, nothing big. Or it's just a pen I took from the bank when I wrote my check, no biggie... Even, taking a longer break then you are supposed to (by even 5 minutes) is stealing. So you do not have to be a murdered, commit armed robbery or be a pathological liar to not be looked upon favorable in God's eyes. We all do. All the time.More then we ever know.
So, can we ever be found favorable to God?
YES!!!!! YES AND YES!!!! That is the awesome thing about God. He is not one to hold grudges. He forgives you each and every time as long as confess your sin and repent. God loves us all the time, no matter how disgraceful we behave. He wants to have that close relationship with us and wants us to desire to have one with Him. If we are always bringing dirty gross sin into the relationship He has to turn his nose at it. How can He not? But if we clean the house, (repent our sins) and invite Him to join us in a clean place washed by His blood He rejoices to spend time wiht us. Do you rejoice at that too? I certainly do!
well, this was much longer then I anticipated, but I think it turned out well.
Remember that in order to be close to Christ, you need His blood to clean you.
God Bless, Trisha
Thursday, July 29, 2010
thinking of my blessings
Today I am thrilled thinking of some amazing news. I am blessed beyond what I thought I could ever be. God is so good to me and my family!!!
Why am I so happy? I'm not really sure. I guess it could be the news I have, or the fact that we have had a great vacation with my husband, or it just could be that I am over tired. lol Anyhow, I'm happy so I'm not complaining about it. :)
Too many times in life we sit and wallow in our own depressing thoughts, what ifs and how comes... If we are so consumed with the what ifs in life we miss out on the amazing things happening all around us.
I'm hesitant to share my news on the internet for now but there will be a day soon I will share it. (No I am not pregnant!) Suffice it to say that God has answered our prayers in ways I could not have imagined. He always surprises me in how awesome He is and how He nurtures us so much. :o)
So what does this news mean to me and to the family? Well, now we can move forward with our lives with a bit more comfort and take time to enjoy God's glory even more.
I was talking to a friend the other day about how our life has been so crazy. She told me that I needed to give things to God and then let go. Her words were convicting to me mostly because 1) I knew she was right and 2) I didn't want her to be right. lol
At my house we have a saying for situations like that.... If the person talking to you is being convicting we tell them they are "talking"... that implies I do not like what you are saying so stop talking please... he he he
So I told my friend to stop talking and we both laughed...
There are many times I feel God is asking me to give my problems to Him and I refuse to let go of them. He can't help me if I won't let go.
Think of it this way. If you are vacuuming a room and your 5 year old wants to help you out. He comes over to take the vacuum from you so he can help. You don't want him to take the vacuum because you know you can do a better job at it. Do you let him take the vacuum from you or do you tell him no and do it yourself, in the process hurting his feelings... Or do you wish he would just say you know mom/dad I know you are trying to clean the room so I will leave you alone to do that.
I know you all wish the little child would leave you to your vacuuming because you can get it cleaner in a faster amount of time. Right? Well, thinking of that analogy, compare it to our problems and God. Are we letting God have the vacuum or are we insistent on helping Him solve our problems? Well, I have news for you, He doesn't need our help, none of it, zilch, nada, nothing. He is really capable to handle anything that comes our way. He can protect us, guide us and watch over us every moment of every day.
so let Him do just that.
Well, that is all for now. Good night. :o)
Trisha
Why am I so happy? I'm not really sure. I guess it could be the news I have, or the fact that we have had a great vacation with my husband, or it just could be that I am over tired. lol Anyhow, I'm happy so I'm not complaining about it. :)
Too many times in life we sit and wallow in our own depressing thoughts, what ifs and how comes... If we are so consumed with the what ifs in life we miss out on the amazing things happening all around us.
I'm hesitant to share my news on the internet for now but there will be a day soon I will share it. (No I am not pregnant!) Suffice it to say that God has answered our prayers in ways I could not have imagined. He always surprises me in how awesome He is and how He nurtures us so much. :o)
So what does this news mean to me and to the family? Well, now we can move forward with our lives with a bit more comfort and take time to enjoy God's glory even more.
I was talking to a friend the other day about how our life has been so crazy. She told me that I needed to give things to God and then let go. Her words were convicting to me mostly because 1) I knew she was right and 2) I didn't want her to be right. lol
At my house we have a saying for situations like that.... If the person talking to you is being convicting we tell them they are "talking"... that implies I do not like what you are saying so stop talking please... he he he
So I told my friend to stop talking and we both laughed...
There are many times I feel God is asking me to give my problems to Him and I refuse to let go of them. He can't help me if I won't let go.
Think of it this way. If you are vacuuming a room and your 5 year old wants to help you out. He comes over to take the vacuum from you so he can help. You don't want him to take the vacuum because you know you can do a better job at it. Do you let him take the vacuum from you or do you tell him no and do it yourself, in the process hurting his feelings... Or do you wish he would just say you know mom/dad I know you are trying to clean the room so I will leave you alone to do that.
I know you all wish the little child would leave you to your vacuuming because you can get it cleaner in a faster amount of time. Right? Well, thinking of that analogy, compare it to our problems and God. Are we letting God have the vacuum or are we insistent on helping Him solve our problems? Well, I have news for you, He doesn't need our help, none of it, zilch, nada, nothing. He is really capable to handle anything that comes our way. He can protect us, guide us and watch over us every moment of every day.
so let Him do just that.
Well, that is all for now. Good night. :o)
Trisha
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
changing my mind
I started this blog this afternoon titled I am lost. Earlier today I had been going through some really trying times. I had told Mike that I would read Proverbs and fast. Well, before I knew it I was mindlessly eating and Proverbs hadn't been read today. : ( How many times do we say we will do something only to get distracted with something else? Well, it happens to me quite a lot. I have to determine in my heart first, then in my mind, that I will spend more time with God; worshiping Him, praising Him and most of all praying to Him. Reading scriptures daily has never been my strong suit. I don't think it is a strong suit for many people. Spending time with God is a necessity of anyone's spiritual life, and something that is usually pushed aside.
So, here on the internet, in front of how ever many people actually look at this, I am committing myself to read the Scriptures more and praying (praising rather then asking) to God more during my days.
I pray you do also. if you do, please post it here for all to see and hold you accountable. I find that if we are not held accountable we tend to become lax and not reliable. Whether it is diets, stopping a bad habit, or spending time with God, accountability goes a long way. So please hold me accountable.
I am not lost anymore, He found me and saved me by shedding His righteous blood. Thank you Jesus!
Good night to you all. I'm praying for you. :o)
So, here on the internet, in front of how ever many people actually look at this, I am committing myself to read the Scriptures more and praying (praising rather then asking) to God more during my days.
I pray you do also. if you do, please post it here for all to see and hold you accountable. I find that if we are not held accountable we tend to become lax and not reliable. Whether it is diets, stopping a bad habit, or spending time with God, accountability goes a long way. So please hold me accountable.
I am not lost anymore, He found me and saved me by shedding His righteous blood. Thank you Jesus!
Good night to you all. I'm praying for you. :o)
Saturday, July 10, 2010
our filing cabinet
Today has been the third day in row I found myself sitting on the couch organizing papers. Why do I have so many papers you might task. My kids were in public school for a period of time; 3 years for Daniel and 4 for Adam. Adam, being special ed, ended up with the most paperwork... of course.
Why is it that we feel we must keep every little scrap of paper the school gives us? Now, don't get my wrong, I am very good at throwing junk papers out. Reports on grades, behaviors, meeting and IEPs I keep. After organizing them I find I have a binder full of papers, just for Adam! Yes, when the kids were homeschooled, being in NYS we have a lot of record keeping and report filing for homeschooled students. However, I have never had this much papers to keep.
This makes me think, what does God's filing cabinet look like? When we are unsaved we have all these papers being filed about us. Each and every time we sin a paper goes in that file for us. Each time we screw up or need correcting a new paper goes in the file. After just a couple of years you can imagine just how full the average person's file must be. I know, I know, the average person is not an ax murder or a pathological liar, right? Well, maybe not but the unsaved are sinful. So are the saved. But I thought that the saved were in God's glory, how can they be full of sin when they are in God's good grace? Back to the filing cabinet, will we?
The unsaved have a large file of sinful acts, even the little white lies are in the file. The file stays there accumulating paper after paper... even after it seems like it will be too full to fit in the cabinet. The saved also have a similar folder. The difference is with repentance after salvation.
Each time a saved individual sins, for any reason be it minute or huge, the paper is added to his/her file... When one repents, (ie: confesses and ask for forgiveness) that paper is then removed and covered with the blood of Christ that was shed on the cross, making it unreadable.... no longer available for God's recall. As a saved person this gives me quite a bit of hope. It doesn't give me the right to go out and sin, but rather gives me comfort in knowing that when I do sin it it has been reconciled for through the blood of Christ.
To me this makes sense and helps me understand a spiritual aspect in a secular world. If I have confused you or if I am mistaken in something, biblically, please correct me. :)
Why is it that we feel we must keep every little scrap of paper the school gives us? Now, don't get my wrong, I am very good at throwing junk papers out. Reports on grades, behaviors, meeting and IEPs I keep. After organizing them I find I have a binder full of papers, just for Adam! Yes, when the kids were homeschooled, being in NYS we have a lot of record keeping and report filing for homeschooled students. However, I have never had this much papers to keep.
This makes me think, what does God's filing cabinet look like? When we are unsaved we have all these papers being filed about us. Each and every time we sin a paper goes in that file for us. Each time we screw up or need correcting a new paper goes in the file. After just a couple of years you can imagine just how full the average person's file must be. I know, I know, the average person is not an ax murder or a pathological liar, right? Well, maybe not but the unsaved are sinful. So are the saved. But I thought that the saved were in God's glory, how can they be full of sin when they are in God's good grace? Back to the filing cabinet, will we?
The unsaved have a large file of sinful acts, even the little white lies are in the file. The file stays there accumulating paper after paper... even after it seems like it will be too full to fit in the cabinet. The saved also have a similar folder. The difference is with repentance after salvation.
Each time a saved individual sins, for any reason be it minute or huge, the paper is added to his/her file... When one repents, (ie: confesses and ask for forgiveness) that paper is then removed and covered with the blood of Christ that was shed on the cross, making it unreadable.... no longer available for God's recall. As a saved person this gives me quite a bit of hope. It doesn't give me the right to go out and sin, but rather gives me comfort in knowing that when I do sin it it has been reconciled for through the blood of Christ.
To me this makes sense and helps me understand a spiritual aspect in a secular world. If I have confused you or if I am mistaken in something, biblically, please correct me. :)
Thursday, July 8, 2010
I love my husband
Ephesians 5:22-28; Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church: and he is the saviour of the body. Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it; That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the washing of water by the word, That he might present it to himself a glorious church, not having spot, or wrinkle, or any such thing; but that it should be holy and without blemish. So ought men to love their wives as their own bodies. He that loveth his wife loveth himself.
A marriage is more then just two people living together having relations... it is more then two people sharing their lives together doing similar things with each other. It is two people, under God's blessing, committing their LIVES (not a period of time) to each other with no strings, prenuptials, or other legal mumbo jumbo....
There have been many times in the last 16 years that Mike and I could have split up, even a few times that I wanted to leave for good. But I knew in my heart that wouldn't have been the right thing to do. I'm sure when we got married we were totally unprepared for the lives God had laid before us. But did we quit? did we leave or bail on each other? No. Why?
Well, to us, marriage is not a commitment before men but a commitment before God himself. are we qualified to break that commitment? I do not think so. So, what if the marriage turns out to be more then we bargained for? What if I decided that Mike was not the right guy for me or if we "fell out of love"... what then? Well, under the commitment I made before god that is just too bad.... If I want a happy marriage then I need to work on things. Do things and take steps to rectify the marriage I let slip away... things didn't go bad from one particular moment in the middle of the night while we were all sleeping. Things got worse, we went our separate ways, over time... without even noticing most likely... So it takes work and effort to fix the problems, to mend the hurt, to set right the wrongs. Relationships fail for one main reason... two people stop working at things. It takes two to tango as the saying goes... So, it took two to let the marriage go down hill it takes two to fix it up again.,... It is fixable, no matter what the problems, if both people work at it and give God the center of the marriage place where HE belongs!
I do not mean to be preachy here. I just mean to elaborate my reason for writing this today... I love my husband!
Mike is not perfect bu the is wonderful. No matter what we have been thru, all the ups and downs, he has stood by my side with loving arms ready for me to be held in. There have been times when, as I said, that I wanted to leave, to run away from our marriage. Now that I type that I am horrified at that fact, but it is true. There have been times when his lack of understanding upsets me so much. The way he handles situations is not only much different then the way I would but it confusing to me when he explains his perspective.
What Mike is is caring, thoughtful and loving. He is patient and understanding of all my faults. Like today, with it being so hot..., all the stress I have been under, the kids not really obeying, Adam having his own teenage issues, and the house looking a mess I was very under the weather mood wise today. He came home, gave me fresh picked berries (which he hates btw!) and made me fresh homemade berry jam (that he finds disgusting to eat btw). He is wonderful and kind and caring. He forgives me of my faults daily, sometimes moment by moment... He is the man that God has brought to me and he has worked his way into the very depths of my heart.
So today I challenge you. If you are married or engaged or dating, ask God to show you the love that Ephesians talks about. If you do not have that love, seek it, work for it, pray for it. If you do have it, praise God. Tell your loved one how much you appreciate them for all they do out of love for you.
Read Ephesians together and challenge your relationship to it's words...
Tell your spouse you love them and mean every word of it. :)
Trisha
A marriage is more then just two people living together having relations... it is more then two people sharing their lives together doing similar things with each other. It is two people, under God's blessing, committing their LIVES (not a period of time) to each other with no strings, prenuptials, or other legal mumbo jumbo....
There have been many times in the last 16 years that Mike and I could have split up, even a few times that I wanted to leave for good. But I knew in my heart that wouldn't have been the right thing to do. I'm sure when we got married we were totally unprepared for the lives God had laid before us. But did we quit? did we leave or bail on each other? No. Why?
Well, to us, marriage is not a commitment before men but a commitment before God himself. are we qualified to break that commitment? I do not think so. So, what if the marriage turns out to be more then we bargained for? What if I decided that Mike was not the right guy for me or if we "fell out of love"... what then? Well, under the commitment I made before god that is just too bad.... If I want a happy marriage then I need to work on things. Do things and take steps to rectify the marriage I let slip away... things didn't go bad from one particular moment in the middle of the night while we were all sleeping. Things got worse, we went our separate ways, over time... without even noticing most likely... So it takes work and effort to fix the problems, to mend the hurt, to set right the wrongs. Relationships fail for one main reason... two people stop working at things. It takes two to tango as the saying goes... So, it took two to let the marriage go down hill it takes two to fix it up again.,... It is fixable, no matter what the problems, if both people work at it and give God the center of the marriage place where HE belongs!
I do not mean to be preachy here. I just mean to elaborate my reason for writing this today... I love my husband!
Mike is not perfect bu the is wonderful. No matter what we have been thru, all the ups and downs, he has stood by my side with loving arms ready for me to be held in. There have been times when, as I said, that I wanted to leave, to run away from our marriage. Now that I type that I am horrified at that fact, but it is true. There have been times when his lack of understanding upsets me so much. The way he handles situations is not only much different then the way I would but it confusing to me when he explains his perspective.
What Mike is is caring, thoughtful and loving. He is patient and understanding of all my faults. Like today, with it being so hot..., all the stress I have been under, the kids not really obeying, Adam having his own teenage issues, and the house looking a mess I was very under the weather mood wise today. He came home, gave me fresh picked berries (which he hates btw!) and made me fresh homemade berry jam (that he finds disgusting to eat btw). He is wonderful and kind and caring. He forgives me of my faults daily, sometimes moment by moment... He is the man that God has brought to me and he has worked his way into the very depths of my heart.
So today I challenge you. If you are married or engaged or dating, ask God to show you the love that Ephesians talks about. If you do not have that love, seek it, work for it, pray for it. If you do have it, praise God. Tell your loved one how much you appreciate them for all they do out of love for you.
Read Ephesians together and challenge your relationship to it's words...
Tell your spouse you love them and mean every word of it. :)
Trisha
Monday, July 5, 2010
more poetry
Today I was thumbing through an older notebook while I was riding in the car out to Avon. Mike was driving and I was thinking. The boys were chatting and being goofy as usual.
In this notebook I found some poetry I wrote a while back and forgot about. I thought I would share those poems with you, my reader.
My Prayer
Please, Lord, always know that you always come first in my life
Without you I would have no life, no breath, no soul
Without you I would have no desires to worship you, love you, praise you
I would not be
Fullfilled
content
happy
loved
Without you I would not be whole
My Life is Yours Lord
My life to you I freely give to with as you would wish
My heart is a lump of clay for you to sculpt and to mold
My hands are on puppet strings for you to move about
My lips wish to always move to your thoughts and your will
My eyes sparkle with the light that can only come from you
My desire is to be like you so plaease show me how
A Maiden with a Dream
A maiden was I who dreamt of a life of missionary work
but time took over and children came, my marriage seemed complete
I always thought one day I might dream that dream once again
It is remembered on and off but it was never forgotten
India was that dream once dreamt but now I wonder
God's will is not very clear but I wish it to be so
To be a missionary is my life long dream you know
To show the world your love is forever on my mind
Show me oh Lord, what you desire from me today
To be your hands and feet on Earth is my daily wish
My heart and mind to you I give today and always
Please guide it as you wish and make it shine for you
Make me a missionary no matter where I may be
Zimbobway, India or the good ole US of A
My life to you I freely give for you to shine through
So, that is my poems. Hope you enjoyed them.
God Bless!
In this notebook I found some poetry I wrote a while back and forgot about. I thought I would share those poems with you, my reader.
My Prayer
Please, Lord, always know that you always come first in my life
Without you I would have no life, no breath, no soul
Without you I would have no desires to worship you, love you, praise you
I would not be
Fullfilled
content
happy
loved
Without you I would not be whole
My Life is Yours Lord
My life to you I freely give to with as you would wish
My heart is a lump of clay for you to sculpt and to mold
My hands are on puppet strings for you to move about
My lips wish to always move to your thoughts and your will
My eyes sparkle with the light that can only come from you
My desire is to be like you so plaease show me how
A Maiden with a Dream
A maiden was I who dreamt of a life of missionary work
but time took over and children came, my marriage seemed complete
I always thought one day I might dream that dream once again
It is remembered on and off but it was never forgotten
India was that dream once dreamt but now I wonder
God's will is not very clear but I wish it to be so
To be a missionary is my life long dream you know
To show the world your love is forever on my mind
Show me oh Lord, what you desire from me today
To be your hands and feet on Earth is my daily wish
My heart and mind to you I give today and always
Please guide it as you wish and make it shine for you
Make me a missionary no matter where I may be
Zimbobway, India or the good ole US of A
My life to you I freely give for you to shine through
So, that is my poems. Hope you enjoyed them.
God Bless!
no idea of what to say
Sometimes we are speechless because we are taken by surprise. Other times it is because we are confused. Today, I am a bit speechless partly because I am overwhelmed.
I feel as if God has me in the waiting position... you know the kind, hurry up! hurry up!!! oh, wait... UGH!!!!!!
Church issues are predominately the issue I am concerned about. My mind is clouded with Adam's testing issues for this school year, Adam's school placement for next school year, how God is working in my life, what ministries He has Mike and I in... or starting... or finishing.... teen age boy hormonal issues (primarily Daniel) and lots of little things to complete around the house...
With all of that I am left waiting......... waiting....... waiting..........
I feel like God says hurry up!!! hurry!!! then oh! wait. UGH!!!!! Now please do not get me wrong. I am not holding any grudge or animosity against the Lord here. I just wish I had some answers.
I'm not a patient person. When I was little I used to tell my sisters Patience is a virtue I do not have. 25- 30 years later, I still have not mastered that virtue. Will I ever? By the grace of God I hope so.
By the Grace of God go I because if it is left up to me I fall on my face way to often!
I feel as if God has me in the waiting position... you know the kind, hurry up! hurry up!!! oh, wait... UGH!!!!!!
Church issues are predominately the issue I am concerned about. My mind is clouded with Adam's testing issues for this school year, Adam's school placement for next school year, how God is working in my life, what ministries He has Mike and I in... or starting... or finishing.... teen age boy hormonal issues (primarily Daniel) and lots of little things to complete around the house...
With all of that I am left waiting......... waiting....... waiting..........
I feel like God says hurry up!!! hurry!!! then oh! wait. UGH!!!!! Now please do not get me wrong. I am not holding any grudge or animosity against the Lord here. I just wish I had some answers.
I'm not a patient person. When I was little I used to tell my sisters Patience is a virtue I do not have. 25- 30 years later, I still have not mastered that virtue. Will I ever? By the grace of God I hope so.
By the Grace of God go I because if it is left up to me I fall on my face way to often!
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Adjustatorium
"Adjustatorium" is a word I saw on Cati Gerwitz's blog this morning. www.fabulousstroffee.com/ It is an unusual word and it caught my attention... From what I can see on Google's search for the word, it is a place where chiropractic patients get adjusted. But to me it means so much more.
Our life is living in an adjustatorium. God gave us this Earth to live on and be happy. He gave it to us as a way of telling us He loves us. We have taken this beautiful world and are not so slowly destroying it. Now, before you get preconceived ideas of me I am not one of those "save the environment - go green" types of gals. I am however, a gal who likes to be a good steward with the wonderful things God has given me. That being said this new word brings ideas to me head.
Adjustatorium is a place (at least to me) where everyone needs to be at one time or another. We all need an adjustment from time to time. In our lives we tend to go our own way, not God's way. Our ways leave us unprotected and heading into danger. God needs to sometimes throw things at us to adjust our direction. We need, in a sense, an adjustment.
So, as you go along your day may you end up in the Adjustatorium if you head off track. God will always give you the adjustment you need, we just need to go sit in His waiting room and ask Him.
God Bless, Trisha
Our life is living in an adjustatorium. God gave us this Earth to live on and be happy. He gave it to us as a way of telling us He loves us. We have taken this beautiful world and are not so slowly destroying it. Now, before you get preconceived ideas of me I am not one of those "save the environment - go green" types of gals. I am however, a gal who likes to be a good steward with the wonderful things God has given me. That being said this new word brings ideas to me head.
Adjustatorium is a place (at least to me) where everyone needs to be at one time or another. We all need an adjustment from time to time. In our lives we tend to go our own way, not God's way. Our ways leave us unprotected and heading into danger. God needs to sometimes throw things at us to adjust our direction. We need, in a sense, an adjustment.
So, as you go along your day may you end up in the Adjustatorium if you head off track. God will always give you the adjustment you need, we just need to go sit in His waiting room and ask Him.
God Bless, Trisha
Friday, July 2, 2010
my poetry from camp
I promised you the poems that I wrote while camping. I finally had a moment to type them out. They are below. If you like them or not, please comment.
Poetry written at Lazy Lakes while camping 2010
LOVE
Missing my husband
Giggles, laughter, joy
Nibbles, pecks, kisses
Arms around
Hands gooching
Sweetness
CREATING
Sawdust in the carpet
Hacksaws lying about
Wood in pieces
Making designs
Creating masterpieces
Keeping busy
Being happy
Mike
TENTING
In
My tent
I like to sleep
Cocooned in a sleeping bag
The sun is rising, the frogs are singing
Breakfast sizzling on the fire
Lots of hiking, biking and fishing
Children catching fish down at the pond
Catch and release fish, wish I could keep
Days gone by, now it’s time to go home
Wish I could stay, but not today
Tear down the tent, pack up the car,
Sadness comes when we are on our way
Home is home, but camp... is pretty special.
RAIN
Rain, you make me dreary
So plwease go away
The flowers need you and so do the drops,
But I would rather not visit with you all day.
So please keep your
Visit short and sweet
Next time we meet.
OVERCAST
Cold
Rainy
Dreary
Dark
Blah
Clouds just go away…
BIKING
Wheels go around
On the smooth ground
Coasting along
Singing a song
GRILLING
Steaks hot dogs
Potatoes, Rolls
Corn, baked beans
Ahhh, now I’m hungry
MIKE
Creative juices
Flowing through
Hands that God made
Objects coming to life
Before our eyes
Right in Mike’s hands
Swiftly smoothly
With little effort
What a gift from God.
RAIN
Wet
Cold
Dreary
Plan changing
Tent dripping
Roof pounding
You stay inside
Outside pauses
Thunder claps
Lightening strikes
Torential
Drizzle
Sprinkle
Rain
RAIN
Really
Annoying
Insistant
Nuisance
FIRE
Fire
Crackling
Embers
Light the sky
Logs
Glowing
In a ring
Toasting
Marshmallows
Perfect for s’mores
Warming
Toes
And my nose (and little kid’s noses)
Parents
Talking
Enjoying the fire
MUD
Slimy, oozy, squishy
Right between my toes
Gross, wet, sloppy
Seeping in my pores
Brown, grey, black
Turning everything dingy
Rain is making puddles
Puddle are getting bigger
Oh, I hate mud!
SHOWER
Hot
Steamy
Humid
Lather
Scrub
Clean
Relaxing………
SLEEPING
In a tent
Cold as ice
Wrapped in a
Sleeping bag
As the air around me
Cools for the night
I lay here feeling
Warm and tight
On a bed of air
I am off the ground
Tired and happy,
Comfy, safe and sound
MY BEAR
Since I was 12
He’s been around
Watching my bed
All day and night
Red pajamas
He still has but
The hat and scarf
Are now long gone
Tan, matted down fur
And worn out nose
He’s lost his mouth
But a smile
He still brings
To the little
Girl inside me
That never grew up
GOING HOME
Going home
Saying good bye
But our time is done
The fun is over
Back to my life
I’m going home
Poetry written at Lazy Lakes while camping 2010
LOVE
Missing my husband
Giggles, laughter, joy
Nibbles, pecks, kisses
Arms around
Hands gooching
Sweetness
CREATING
Sawdust in the carpet
Hacksaws lying about
Wood in pieces
Making designs
Creating masterpieces
Keeping busy
Being happy
Mike
TENTING
In
My tent
I like to sleep
Cocooned in a sleeping bag
The sun is rising, the frogs are singing
Breakfast sizzling on the fire
Lots of hiking, biking and fishing
Children catching fish down at the pond
Catch and release fish, wish I could keep
Days gone by, now it’s time to go home
Wish I could stay, but not today
Tear down the tent, pack up the car,
Sadness comes when we are on our way
Home is home, but camp... is pretty special.
RAIN
Rain, you make me dreary
So plwease go away
The flowers need you and so do the drops,
But I would rather not visit with you all day.
So please keep your
Visit short and sweet
Next time we meet.
OVERCAST
Cold
Rainy
Dreary
Dark
Blah
Clouds just go away…
BIKING
Wheels go around
On the smooth ground
Coasting along
Singing a song
GRILLING
Steaks hot dogs
Potatoes, Rolls
Corn, baked beans
Ahhh, now I’m hungry
MIKE
Creative juices
Flowing through
Hands that God made
Objects coming to life
Before our eyes
Right in Mike’s hands
Swiftly smoothly
With little effort
What a gift from God.
RAIN
Wet
Cold
Dreary
Plan changing
Tent dripping
Roof pounding
You stay inside
Outside pauses
Thunder claps
Lightening strikes
Torential
Drizzle
Sprinkle
Rain
RAIN
Really
Annoying
Insistant
Nuisance
FIRE
Fire
Crackling
Embers
Light the sky
Logs
Glowing
In a ring
Toasting
Marshmallows
Perfect for s’mores
Warming
Toes
And my nose (and little kid’s noses)
Parents
Talking
Enjoying the fire
MUD
Slimy, oozy, squishy
Right between my toes
Gross, wet, sloppy
Seeping in my pores
Brown, grey, black
Turning everything dingy
Rain is making puddles
Puddle are getting bigger
Oh, I hate mud!
SHOWER
Hot
Steamy
Humid
Lather
Scrub
Clean
Relaxing………
SLEEPING
In a tent
Cold as ice
Wrapped in a
Sleeping bag
As the air around me
Cools for the night
I lay here feeling
Warm and tight
On a bed of air
I am off the ground
Tired and happy,
Comfy, safe and sound
MY BEAR
Since I was 12
He’s been around
Watching my bed
All day and night
Red pajamas
He still has but
The hat and scarf
Are now long gone
Tan, matted down fur
And worn out nose
He’s lost his mouth
But a smile
He still brings
To the little
Girl inside me
That never grew up
GOING HOME
Going home
Saying good bye
But our time is done
The fun is over
Back to my life
I’m going home
poetry
Poetry can clear the mind.
While I was camping the rain and mud really got to me. I get frustrated and bummed... so I wrote poetry. (I will put on my blog soon, just not tonight, sorry.) Anyhow, I find that no matter what I am feeling writing helps me. I can be depressed, happy, sad, frustrated, giggly, angry, or just plain normal and when I right it is if my mind gets a the moment I need to regroup and refocus... I love writing. I love reading too.
Reading the scroiptures is a wonderful pastime of mine. Some people say it is boring and I can agree with them a very small bit. I find though it is only boring whne I do not put my mind to it. When I let me mind wonder while I read or when I am too tired to focus on the words and meanings, then it gets boring. When I read I always find new things out, even if it is a passage I have read a zillion times.
So, next time you get feeloing off, try writing or reading... broaden your mind and refocus it ont he important things in life. :)
Trisha
While I was camping the rain and mud really got to me. I get frustrated and bummed... so I wrote poetry. (I will put on my blog soon, just not tonight, sorry.) Anyhow, I find that no matter what I am feeling writing helps me. I can be depressed, happy, sad, frustrated, giggly, angry, or just plain normal and when I right it is if my mind gets a the moment I need to regroup and refocus... I love writing. I love reading too.
Reading the scroiptures is a wonderful pastime of mine. Some people say it is boring and I can agree with them a very small bit. I find though it is only boring whne I do not put my mind to it. When I let me mind wonder while I read or when I am too tired to focus on the words and meanings, then it gets boring. When I read I always find new things out, even if it is a passage I have read a zillion times.
So, next time you get feeloing off, try writing or reading... broaden your mind and refocus it ont he important things in life. :)
Trisha
Thursday, July 1, 2010
home from camp
Hi Everyone!!!
Well, we are home from camp. It was sooooooooo nice to relax......... :) The water, the trees, the clear sky (when it wasn't raining that is) and wonderful friends, all gifts from God. Even the rain, albeit annoying and mud creating, is a wonderful gift from God as it makes the plants grow and gives us one of the basics of life; water...
Ok, so now that I am home I am TIRED. We didn't do much today when we arrived home. We did some minor cleaning and a bit of unloading the car but there is still much more to do. Right now I am off to bed, in an actual bed and not on an air mattress. he he he
I wrote a bunch of poetry while I was camping and would love to share the poems with you but that will have to wait till the morrow... I bid you a good night and a restful sleep.
God bless you all and thanks for the prayers!!!
Trisha
Well, we are home from camp. It was sooooooooo nice to relax......... :) The water, the trees, the clear sky (when it wasn't raining that is) and wonderful friends, all gifts from God. Even the rain, albeit annoying and mud creating, is a wonderful gift from God as it makes the plants grow and gives us one of the basics of life; water...
Ok, so now that I am home I am TIRED. We didn't do much today when we arrived home. We did some minor cleaning and a bit of unloading the car but there is still much more to do. Right now I am off to bed, in an actual bed and not on an air mattress. he he he
I wrote a bunch of poetry while I was camping and would love to share the poems with you but that will have to wait till the morrow... I bid you a good night and a restful sleep.
God bless you all and thanks for the prayers!!!
Trisha
Thursday, June 24, 2010
camping!!!!!!!!!!
Oh I so love camping...
s'mores, camp fires, tents, creeks, stars and trees... What a wonderful way to appreciate God's beautiful creation!
So as you can probablly guess I am going camping!!!! I am soooooooo psyched!! I can not wait! :)
I will not be bringing my laptop :( so I will not be getting online while I am gone. (If you have been reading this blog you might remember that I poured water on my laptop by mistake so it is, for the moment, not usable. Please PLEASE! pray that it is salvageable. I will try it again when I return.
I will be praying for you all while I am gone. If you have the time (make the time if you can) go outside and enjoy the wonderfully amazingly beautiful creation that our God and Savior has made for us. :)
ttys, Trisha
s'mores, camp fires, tents, creeks, stars and trees... What a wonderful way to appreciate God's beautiful creation!
So as you can probablly guess I am going camping!!!! I am soooooooo psyched!! I can not wait! :)
I will not be bringing my laptop :( so I will not be getting online while I am gone. (If you have been reading this blog you might remember that I poured water on my laptop by mistake so it is, for the moment, not usable. Please PLEASE! pray that it is salvageable. I will try it again when I return.
I will be praying for you all while I am gone. If you have the time (make the time if you can) go outside and enjoy the wonderfully amazingly beautiful creation that our God and Savior has made for us. :)
ttys, Trisha
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
why pain and sufferring?
You know, I sit here tonight with my face hurting really bad. I have calcium deposits in my ligaments in my jaw. It causes my face to hurt a lot sometimes. I wear a mouth piece that is helping alleviate the discomfort and take pain medicines that help. However, this leads me to thinking why God created pain.
Did God "create" pain or what? I do not think so. Does God make people have pain? No on that one too. So why do people have pain? Well, it is all Eve's fault. Yes, and Adam's too... You see they had it good in the beginning. God created a wonderful place for them to live, to grow, to cherish. He gave them a direct line to Him. He walked with them in the Garden. How amazing is that???? You see, God wanted humans to spend time with Him in Glory... He wanted mankind to be part of Him. He is not a God of pain and suffering... So, if He didn't "create" pain, then why is there pain?
Well, let's get back to Adam and Eve. They both are the fruit, and Adam lied to God. They saw that life was good but then they got greedy. They wanted what God had, which was more then they had. They wanted to know good and evil.... Mankind in his heart is awful, conniving, greedy, wishy-washy, spoiled, bratty and just plain stupid... (BTW stupid means that you know what you are doing things you know you shouldn't be doing but you do it anyway.) anyhow, Mankind, in his heart, is not God like. We have to fight not only Satan but our own fleshly desires.
God does not create the pain we feel. It is a direct result of sin that has entered mankind's existence. So, I should not blame God for this pain but rather request help in dealing with it if He sees fit not to relieve it altogether.
So, if you are in pain tonight, any pain be it emotional, spiritual, or physical, God desires to help you with it. He desires that pain to draw you closer to Him. Sometimes He will relieve the pain other times he will just give you strength to bear it. Either way He is helping you... :)
Mike reminds me of how the Apostle Paul asked 3 times to be relieved of the the thorn in his side but God said "My Grace is Sufficient for Thee". Let us rejoice that His Grace Is sufficient for Me. (and you!)
In Christ, Trisha
Did God "create" pain or what? I do not think so. Does God make people have pain? No on that one too. So why do people have pain? Well, it is all Eve's fault. Yes, and Adam's too... You see they had it good in the beginning. God created a wonderful place for them to live, to grow, to cherish. He gave them a direct line to Him. He walked with them in the Garden. How amazing is that???? You see, God wanted humans to spend time with Him in Glory... He wanted mankind to be part of Him. He is not a God of pain and suffering... So, if He didn't "create" pain, then why is there pain?
Well, let's get back to Adam and Eve. They both are the fruit, and Adam lied to God. They saw that life was good but then they got greedy. They wanted what God had, which was more then they had. They wanted to know good and evil.... Mankind in his heart is awful, conniving, greedy, wishy-washy, spoiled, bratty and just plain stupid... (BTW stupid means that you know what you are doing things you know you shouldn't be doing but you do it anyway.) anyhow, Mankind, in his heart, is not God like. We have to fight not only Satan but our own fleshly desires.
God does not create the pain we feel. It is a direct result of sin that has entered mankind's existence. So, I should not blame God for this pain but rather request help in dealing with it if He sees fit not to relieve it altogether.
So, if you are in pain tonight, any pain be it emotional, spiritual, or physical, God desires to help you with it. He desires that pain to draw you closer to Him. Sometimes He will relieve the pain other times he will just give you strength to bear it. Either way He is helping you... :)
Mike reminds me of how the Apostle Paul asked 3 times to be relieved of the the thorn in his side but God said "My Grace is Sufficient for Thee". Let us rejoice that His Grace Is sufficient for Me. (and you!)
In Christ, Trisha
what a day
What a day is a good way to put it. I went to the school this morning to volunteer in the school library. I really enjoy it. I am glad that even though my children are not in public school that God has seen to it to give me this opportunity.
Today I will be busy doing so many things. I have only till Thursday night to complete the list of things I need to get done before e go camping. Two more loads of laundry to wash dry and fold. I have to pack the suitcases, go grocery shopping for camping, complete paperwork for school for final grades this school year. and much much more. Ok, so with all I have to do, why am I sitting here typing out a dumb blog? I needed a quick break. : )
Well, I jsut wanted to say that i probably will not get a chance to post another blog until I return from camping. So I wil leave you with this thought.
No matter what we do in life, where we go or who we are with, we are always being watched.That may seem paranoid but it's a reality. Our actions always speak louder then words. Saying something and acting someway are two different things. Please make sure that your actions reiterate your words. Make sure that you are the best witness for Christ you can be. Even when you do not think you are being watched, you are. The people around you will see how good of a christian you are when you think no one is noticing. so, live for the Lord as if everything you do is being watched and accounted for, because it is, by people around you and mostly by God.
Today I will be busy doing so many things. I have only till Thursday night to complete the list of things I need to get done before e go camping. Two more loads of laundry to wash dry and fold. I have to pack the suitcases, go grocery shopping for camping, complete paperwork for school for final grades this school year. and much much more. Ok, so with all I have to do, why am I sitting here typing out a dumb blog? I needed a quick break. : )
Well, I jsut wanted to say that i probably will not get a chance to post another blog until I return from camping. So I wil leave you with this thought.
No matter what we do in life, where we go or who we are with, we are always being watched.That may seem paranoid but it's a reality. Our actions always speak louder then words. Saying something and acting someway are two different things. Please make sure that your actions reiterate your words. Make sure that you are the best witness for Christ you can be. Even when you do not think you are being watched, you are. The people around you will see how good of a christian you are when you think no one is noticing. so, live for the Lord as if everything you do is being watched and accounted for, because it is, by people around you and mostly by God.
Monday, June 21, 2010
What a great day
Well, it is a beautiful day in the neighborhood! Gosh, I do miss Mr. Rogers. I know a lot of people mocked him but he was a great inspiration for many, many years... We need more people like him. :)
I actually started this blog today thinking of what a wonderful day it was while I was driving out and about. Then I started typing and Mr. Rogers' comment came to mind. So here I am, happy :) about what a great guy he was here on Earth and sad that he has passed on. :(
Today, it downed on me that we go camping in 3 days!!! I haven't yet packed anything except a few dry foods. OH MY!!!! Have I got to get my butt in gear! (Usually I am finished packing all my stuff by now!!!) The house is messy, laundry isn't finished being folded yet and I have plants to plant in the garden still... wow! what a day tomorrow will be.
On another note, I was informed today that I hurt a close friend's feelings, of course, unintentionally. We really have to be careful of how we say things and the words that we say. As Christians we tend to think that if we say something with the right heart behind it that it would be ok to say. Sometimes it is not though... Sometimes we have to stop and think with the brain that God gave us. Is this, no matter how it is said, going to hurt this person's feelings? If so, should it really be said, no matter how good our intentions are? In my case, it not only could have been said nicer, but maybe it didn't need to be said at all...
So here I am, sitting and thinking of how my well thought out my words affect those in ways I could not have thought, and praying that God heals this person's heart. I pray that God goes before my well intended, but maybe wrongly spoken words.
So, don't forget to thank God for all He has done and He will do. Most of all thank Him for his forgiveness of all our faults, intentional or not.
Good night. Trisha
I actually started this blog today thinking of what a wonderful day it was while I was driving out and about. Then I started typing and Mr. Rogers' comment came to mind. So here I am, happy :) about what a great guy he was here on Earth and sad that he has passed on. :(
Today, it downed on me that we go camping in 3 days!!! I haven't yet packed anything except a few dry foods. OH MY!!!! Have I got to get my butt in gear! (Usually I am finished packing all my stuff by now!!!) The house is messy, laundry isn't finished being folded yet and I have plants to plant in the garden still... wow! what a day tomorrow will be.
On another note, I was informed today that I hurt a close friend's feelings, of course, unintentionally. We really have to be careful of how we say things and the words that we say. As Christians we tend to think that if we say something with the right heart behind it that it would be ok to say. Sometimes it is not though... Sometimes we have to stop and think with the brain that God gave us. Is this, no matter how it is said, going to hurt this person's feelings? If so, should it really be said, no matter how good our intentions are? In my case, it not only could have been said nicer, but maybe it didn't need to be said at all...
So here I am, sitting and thinking of how my well thought out my words affect those in ways I could not have thought, and praying that God heals this person's heart. I pray that God goes before my well intended, but maybe wrongly spoken words.
So, don't forget to thank God for all He has done and He will do. Most of all thank Him for his forgiveness of all our faults, intentional or not.
Good night. Trisha
Sunday, June 20, 2010
life happens, don't let it get you down
Ok, so last night, life happened and it's my fault. If it were my kids' faults or my hubby's I would most likely be really angry, but I have no one to blame but myself. Why is it that I am not mad at myself? Well, I think it is because having Christ in my life reminds me of the important things in life. I have a place to live that is warm and comfy, food to eat and a family that loves me as much as I love them.
So, by this time you are probably wondering what actually happened? Well, to put it bluntly, I ruined my laptop. I know!!!! How horrible! What happened???? Well, I had my laptop on the coffee table in front of the couch. I put my glass of water down next to it. When I then put something next to the water glass it tipped the water glass over and a full glass of water poured right across the keyboard....UGH!!!!!!
Now it is "drying out" I hope. But like I said in the beginning of this post, Life Happens.
So why am I not mad? I am disappointed of course but this experience has got me thinking. One, God blessed me with a wonderful laptop that was able to get wifi high speed connection. Two, God blessed me with the money to buy that nice electronic device. But what God gives God can also take away. :) So does that mean that I think God schemed to get rid of my lap top? NO! It was a joke. lol
I am not upset about it though. You see, we have to enjoy the things we have in life before they disappear. Enjoy the way your family hugs you, enjoy the peck your spouse gives you on his way out the door, enjoy the bugs that your kids bring you in their cupped hands. Most of all, treasure and cherish the breath and life God has given you.
Laptops are expensive, and I hope and pray mine is not totally dead, but if it is, oh well. PDA's are expensive, so are cars, houses and the list goes on.... but those are just things.... not something that you can take with you when you die.
When I die, I want people to think of me as a friendly, helpful person who loved the Lord. I do not want people to think I was obsessed over "uping the Jones" next door. My things are things, but my family is alive and our God is more alive then anyone can imagine! To me, my treasure is with Christ but while I am here on earth I will not stop treasuring my family and friends too. :)
Does that mean that I will not jump for joy if my laptop does actually work after it dries out? ABSOLUTELY NOT! You will probably hear me for miles screaming for joy if it turns on and is ok... This just means that it is not the most important thing in the world to me.
So, what does this all mean for my new blog??? not sure yet. I do have my desktop, but it is on dial up. I am also going camping soon so I will be hit and miss on here for a little while. When I return from camp I will keep the blog up. I am enjoying it. I just might not be on every day...
So for now, enjoy what God has blessed you with but do not forget to keep God first above all things... :)
Trisha
So, by this time you are probably wondering what actually happened? Well, to put it bluntly, I ruined my laptop. I know!!!! How horrible! What happened???? Well, I had my laptop on the coffee table in front of the couch. I put my glass of water down next to it. When I then put something next to the water glass it tipped the water glass over and a full glass of water poured right across the keyboard....UGH!!!!!!
Now it is "drying out" I hope. But like I said in the beginning of this post, Life Happens.
So why am I not mad? I am disappointed of course but this experience has got me thinking. One, God blessed me with a wonderful laptop that was able to get wifi high speed connection. Two, God blessed me with the money to buy that nice electronic device. But what God gives God can also take away. :) So does that mean that I think God schemed to get rid of my lap top? NO! It was a joke. lol
I am not upset about it though. You see, we have to enjoy the things we have in life before they disappear. Enjoy the way your family hugs you, enjoy the peck your spouse gives you on his way out the door, enjoy the bugs that your kids bring you in their cupped hands. Most of all, treasure and cherish the breath and life God has given you.
Laptops are expensive, and I hope and pray mine is not totally dead, but if it is, oh well. PDA's are expensive, so are cars, houses and the list goes on.... but those are just things.... not something that you can take with you when you die.
When I die, I want people to think of me as a friendly, helpful person who loved the Lord. I do not want people to think I was obsessed over "uping the Jones" next door. My things are things, but my family is alive and our God is more alive then anyone can imagine! To me, my treasure is with Christ but while I am here on earth I will not stop treasuring my family and friends too. :)
Does that mean that I will not jump for joy if my laptop does actually work after it dries out? ABSOLUTELY NOT! You will probably hear me for miles screaming for joy if it turns on and is ok... This just means that it is not the most important thing in the world to me.
So, what does this all mean for my new blog??? not sure yet. I do have my desktop, but it is on dial up. I am also going camping soon so I will be hit and miss on here for a little while. When I return from camp I will keep the blog up. I am enjoying it. I just might not be on every day...
So for now, enjoy what God has blessed you with but do not forget to keep God first above all things... :)
Trisha
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