What to write

I have so wanted to write for quite a while now but I either do not have the time or am too tired and end up going to bed. so today, before either of those happen I thought I would write for a bit.

I have had a few people tell me that I should blog about certain topics, including but not limited to; the problems I feel that are wrong with Christmas, (and any holiday for that matter), living with two aspies, the need for church, why worship is so important and more. I thought since I have the time today I would try to cover as much of these topics as I can.

First of all, Christmas is a big sore spot with me. Don't get me wrong, I love the holiday itself. We actually do celebrate it like most people; with a tree, stockings and presents. However, the Santa thing irks me so much!

We have never told our kids that Santa Claus was real. As for the tooth fairy, the sandman, the Easter bunny, ghosts, goblins, mother nature, and all those other fictional characters, we have told our children they are not true and why the world likes to keep kids thinking they are. These characters are fictional, that means false!!! NOT TRUE! Not only are you lying to your children when you "play along" with imagining they are real but you are risking them not believing you when you say Christ is real. That is not a risk I will take.

(Exclaimer: This is only my opinion based on facts from the Holy Scriptures, specifically written by God Almighty himself. I am sorry if this offends but I will not say I'm sorry for saying the truth.)

I hate the commercialism that the holidays (ok, most holidays) brings out in us as humans. I'm not even going off of the REAL reason why we use the Christmas tree (to worship a "god"), decorate it (a Yuletide celebrations and celebration of the return of the sun), why stockings are hung by the chimney (St. Nicholas putting money in them) or why we exchange presents (to celebrate Saturnalia). **Now, I do not claim to know everything about the origins so if I am factually wrong, forgive me and feel free to correct me.** What I am bothered by most of all though is that the holiday is no longer looked at as a sacred holiday set aside to worship God and remember Jesus' birth here on Earth, but rather a way to suck money out of people. Now, we do celebrate Christmas with the tree, stockings and gifts, as I have said. If I am bugged so badly by the commercialism you would think I would not even partake in it. As a family we take time to remember the reason we are celebrating the holiday, the birth of Christ. We do things that specifically to remind the kids of that fact. On Christmas Eve we have a birthday party for Jesus and talk about how His birth has affected us and what it means to the world. Christmas morning starts out with prayer and breakfast. Then one of the kids gets to hand out each present to the person who bought it. Then we take turns passing each gift to the person it was bought for and waiting for them to open it before we go the next gift to be opened. We do not want to take away from our children nor ourselves the joy of celebrating Christmas but we insist that all the celebration revolve around Jesus. :) He is our rock, our fortress, and our Saviour.

Living with Aspies: WOW! What can I say? It is always an adventure. I love my husband and my oldest son so much but they sure can drive me crazy! lmbo!!! My little son, not so little anymore since he is now 13, has Moebius and anxieties but he is NO aspie that is for sure! lol Adam and Mike are so much alike it is really creepy at times. They both get obsessed with things. Right now Mike is working on yet another project. Adam is focused on Legos and making military crafts out of them. Adam has really gotten into reading Garfield each night and through out the day. At least he is actually reading so I am happy. Mike, he reads Scriptures and comics. lol not much else for enjoyment though.

living with Aspies keeps my grounded. It keeps me focused on the needs of my family and not my desires. You see, I am a social person. I could hang out with my friends, go out to places, parties, and other social places. Those types of places make Mike and Adam get flustered. I have gotten more sensitive to being over stimulated because I have had to be distances myself (along with the whole family) from it for so many years due to Mike and Adam's Asperger's (AS) and Daniel's shyness and anxieties. But it's not my nature to be anti-social. I love people, I love being around people, I love being a helpful person to anyone I come across. I love having people to my place to hang out or to have dinner with us. My kids friends all know that they are always welcome at our house for any reason. I love having the commotion around me and feeling like I am part of it. BUT I have gotten so used to not living that lifestyle that sometimes I get overwhelmed from it now. I hate that part of me! lol What I do love is that Mike and Adam's AS makes them lovable and unique. Yes, there are days when I want to kill one or both of them. They do not always know when to stop joking and that gets me upset. They don't always (ok rarely do they) know how to handle emotions, or to be comforting when I (or Daniel) gets upset. If it is us being upset at them they feel attacked and automatically go into self preservation mode. This makes them focus on their selves much more so, sometimes excluding any results of their rude or inappropriate behavior.

Although it does sound like am (or may be) leaning towards not liking them around me, nothing can be further from the truth. Sure we all have our own problems, AS or not. We all have "our crosses to bear" as the saying goes. Both Mike and Adam get frustrated with their lack of proper response to stimulation, lack of emotional control and being different then theirs.

Church, worship, gathering of the brethren - The funny thing about going to church each Sunday and Bible studies, worship jams, and other Church events you can feel the love that God is pouring out on our family. Some people can't even get to a church due to lack of transportation, driving to work, being around other like minded people.

Church is for learning the Word. yes I will give you that one. But it is so much more then that. God wants us to make a joyful noise unto Him. He wants to us to edify and uplift each other in his name. He wants our praise and adulation; not because he is a egotistical God but because hearing how His creation loves Him and wants to have a relationship with him is music to His ears! So, in your rising up and in your laying down, in your sleep filled eyes and when you are wide awake. Worship time is how we interact with the one true God. It's what makes God our closest friend. We interact with Him as if he was truly a person. worship is our way to spend time hanging out with God. Me, well, I wouldn't miss it for the world. Worship Christ is a wonderful feeling. :)

Scripture are our instruction book for our life. Babies do come with instruction book but most people have no idea what goes on around. the scenes that keep Petco up and running so well.If we take the time to actually listen and heed it's instructions I'm sure you will have a wonderful life.

Ok, so this is longer then I anticipated and I am now falling asleep at the computer. I had better get to sleep. I know that this post is long and I still didn't cover all that I wanted to know. I will try to add more things to it when I am more awake. sleep tight and sweet dreams everyone.